Even a thought, even a possibility, can shatter and transform us. --Friedrich Nietzsche--
man, things have been so hectic lately... and i've totally neglected my blog... but sometimes too much shit is going on and i can't sit down and organize all my thoughts... i guess that's how it's been lately... it's funny how so much can be going on that you stop and suddenly realize that you haven't actually thought about anything in awhile, you've just been running on autopilot... and not in that bored stuck in a rut kind of way, but the exciting moving too fast to think kind of way... things have to be done and you do them, without thinking, no questions asked, because if you stop you miss out... it's very exciting and yet... when you do stop you wonder where the time went... but that would be looking back and now... now i'm looking forward... it's my whole theme for the year...
and speaking of looking forward, i have a ton more to do in the upcoming days... sitting here and realizing that things could change dramatically for me in the next two or three weeks is a weird feeling for me.. i've always been one to approach change in slow, thoughtful increments... now i have this opportunity to just kind of leap frog ahead and do things i normally wouldn't do and i guess stopping to breathe scares me because i'm afraid i might choke on the intake and stumble... so i'm steaming ahead, no regrets...
if i haven't already said it enough... i'm hella excited...
plus my financial outlook is promising, despite the negative insights of my horoscopes in such matters... the thought that i might actually be able to afford to pay my taxes, pay for school and pay for a car in the next six months is so daunting that i'm afraid to look at it too long because it may disappear just like that... kind of like those stars that are really faint and far away... you kind of have to avert your gaze and catch them with the corner of your eye... and you see that the possibility is there... knock on wood to not jinx myself.
