The real, practical world is only a starting place for Idealists; they believe that life is filled with possibilities waiting to be realized, rich with meanings calling out to be understood.
after thinking more about this... and reading a little deeper... i think this is the part i have the most trouble with... i used to be this person... a person who believed that great things were possible and that i was going somewhere... the where never really mattered but i had faith that i would end up right where i belonged... things used to be so much simpler and it was easy for me to feel like the world was just there for the taking... somewhere along the way i think this faith got clouded for me... i hit a few roadbumps and realized that things don't always come easy... in fact, the things that are really worth it demand a much higher price... so i've been sulking like a teenager just wanting someone who would come along and set it right for me... but no one can do that for me... there's been a long time since i've had hope for anything outside of what is right in front of me...
i think that what i forgot somewhere along the way was that, actually, things weren't always easy for me... i spent a lot of time fighting for the things i wanted and working very hard to get them... back then i wanted small things... hs is all about small things, isn't it? being out here in the real world you realize that things are much bigger and it's scary... so much so that i gave up at some point b/c i was too afraid of failing... to say i didn't have the support i needed would be a lie... the only weak link in this chain is me... realizing and admitting that has been very important to me...
so anyway, yes, i do have a problem with this part of this whole psyche eval... but not because i think it is completely wrong... i think it is completely right but it is something that i'm scared to do... i'm scared to be that person again because it seemed so naive... being that person got me hurt... knowing who you are and being who are you is a world apart... being practical and just getting by has gotten me nowhere and i'm just about tired of it... i guess i've played this part out and it's time for me to get back to where i belong... the implications of that have yet to be seen :o)
