it's funny how you think work creates this really rigid and boring schedule in your life. and you wish you didn't have to have that, and you could just do what you wanted when you wanted. maybe it's just me and my inner child fighting to get out. in fact, i think she usually wins. i'd rather sit and play video games than doing any at home transcription work in the wee hours of the evening. and i'd rather be watching cartoons (albeit adult type ones like simpsons, family guy and south park) than actually going to bed early so i can get up for work the next day. i like to enjoy myself and have problems with authority, ie. being told what to do, when to do it, or how to do it.
so now i've got this whole week or so to do anything i want. all through to next week. let's call it an extended spring break (even though spring doesn't officially start until saturday). and i was so hella excited. i was gonna do whatever i wanted, whenever i wanted, and no one can say anything about it. i'm technically getting paid for the week, doing a lil bit of work here and there and getting paid more than the trouble is worth (lucky me). but the funny thing is... i don't do anything out of the ordinary. i get up and i have this schedule. i watch dawsons creek. then i feel kinda guilty and lazy, so i work for awhile. either transcription work or i will go and clean the apt. then i get bored and mess around with clothes or necklaces or something. finally i get back into the guilty mode right before huey gets home and try to squeeze in more work. so i'm usually doing something responsible when he gets home and can act like i've been doing it almost all day. it's kinda funny. it's a definite pattern i've fallen too in a very scary short amount of time. i couldn't imagine being unemployed for any period of time. i'd bore myself to death. especially since i don't have a car.
so yeah, it's not like i'm complaining. i've loved my vacation. it's a welcome break from the tedium of the last two years. but if it lasted too long (say more than a month) i'd probably hurt myself... in a bad way. i'd go crazy being bored. no purpose, nothing to do... making no money. if anything i'd worry myself to death. but i'm enjoying it for now. i got no plans, no obligations, i'm just going with the flow... and i couldn't ask for more in a vacation.
cheers to me and the rest of my vacation doing nothing in particular!!!!!!!!!!111
