so on my vacation i obviously have a lot of free time that i haven't wasted posting things here. i think that is a good thing. it's been so absolutely gorgeous outside and i've really been trying to enjoy my vacation as much as possible. i get to sleep in late but not too late. i don't want to get totally lazy and off schedule. and i've gotten the apt. cleaned and laundry done which is great. after working so much and being so stressed the last month, it's nice to just sit and say, you know what, i'm rearranging my books today. and just doing it. not that i've gotten that desperate for things to do yet, but i'd probably enjoy it immensely if that is what i chose to do.
i have been making some more necklaces and bracelets and stuff. huey always tells me that i've let my creative juices dry up. i never really agreed with him but i was always too tired to try to prove him wrong. now i've got some free time and i'm really enjoying getting to make things again. so maybe i'm not drawing and painting again, but i think this is an excellent start. it really gets me back in the mood to just plug in my iPod and let music play really loud and just kind of mess around with things again. i can sit for two hours, make something and then step back and look at it. if i like it, i put it on. if i don't, i either decide who to give it to or throw it in the box to be taken apart and reused another day. the point is that i enjoy doing it, whatever the outcome. i guess i'm just one of those people who likes to create, but hates to be told what to create, or when or how. maybe it's like pouring water into your hands... it squeezes out here and there, trickling over different edges... and i try myself at different things, not really wanting to limit myself... and one of these days i'll get the opportunity to just open up and let it all go. but that day is not today, and that's okay with me. i've just got some more dues to pay.
but really the whole point of this is yay for vacation!! even if it does come at the price of being sort of temporarily unemployed. now i'm going to go make some of the other ideas i'd had last night but got too tired to do.
