i realized last night that, while my brain may not have fully realized it yet, i'm going to be in the middle of a full on freak out in may. there is just too much stuff coming up that will all have to be happening in that month. first is music midtown, which it's safe to say i won't be going to, and that fuckin sucks. because i really wanted to. stupid work. then the next weekend is wedding!! that is fun!! but once again... requires time off of work, which is bad bad when you need big saturdays to reach your commission. then the very next weekend, our new apartment opens up. once again, see the saturday commission thing. i won't be able to move til the next weekend, whatever that is... at least we have from the 15th all the way til the end of the month to get everything moved. it's just that it's a long way to move (kinda) and it's not something we'll want to make a 1000 trips doing. then, just to stress me out some more, let's throw in the fact that all my paperwork for application to school has to be filed by the end of may also. alright, throw it all in and turn on the blender!! that's how my stomach feels just thinking about all this crap.
so i think after i get these transcriptions done and do my taxes, then that will be the end of my april hurdles. i'll be able to start minutely planning for all these may activities and drive myself nuts figuring out details that can't actually be determined until much, much closer to the actual dates of all this stuff happening. oh, i can feel the list making coming on again. except instead of coming home with me on scraps of scitrek receipt tape, it'll be on random little cards and flyers from tmobile. argh!! and i still have to clean off the wipeboard from december where i made a very detailed schedule of everything happening for both huey and i the week before the christmas party. i guess i'm a little neurotic about this stuff. it's just that things have to get done or... well, i hadn't actually considered what would happen if i didn't take control of this kind of stuff and plan it out minute by minute. i assume we would still get moved. we'd still make it to the wedding okay. and i have a whole month to get my stuff in for school and it's only like a couple of things that need to be sent there. really it's no big deal, right? hmmm... maybe i'll try it this way for once. no lists... no schedules... no worries!!
yeah right. we'll see. gotta finish april stuff first.
