what is my major goal now? getting a car. i realize now that one of my biggest reasons for staying in the same situation i was in for so long (that would be no school and crappy job) was transportation. it fit and it was easy to commute. i look back now and realize what an extremely crappy reason that was. and it was entirely subconscious. as soon as the issue of a new job came up, the biggest deterrant i had was transportation. especially b/c it's in woodstock. once we move to vinings, it'll be even worse. huey will work in one direction and i'll work in another. when school starts this fall, there is no way it'll work. huey will be heading south to gastate and i'll be headed north for kennesaw for work and school. it has become very, very necessary that i get a car asap.
and that is good because it is lighting a fire under my ass to get it done any way possible. but it is also bad because it means that i probably won't be able to save up and get what i wanted... my jeep wrangler. i'm so sick of everyone telling me that i'm going to flip it. plenty of people drives jeeps and don't flip them. anyway, i guess everyone was right after all and it bums me out. but a car is a car, and getting to and from work and school is my number one priority, no matter how uncool my ride will be. knowing i can afford a car is the first step, and huey and i are going to sit down and go over a budget as soon as we get all the expenses figured out for the new house. with both of us in school and working... well, it'll be tricky. and a lot of work.
i'm kind of excited about it in that nervous, obsessively worried kind of way. i think it's all crazy... but doable. it won't be easy, but nothing worth having ever is. and that is something that i've always heard but am just beginning to actually understand. life's little lessons. huh.
