well, then it would be perfect wouldn't it? well, maybe not perfect... but simpler. and with happy endings. and i don't mean the kind you get in asian massage parlors. sometimes after a hard day you just want to come home and have someone pat you on the shoulder and say, everything is going to be okay and then make you dinner and sit down and watch all your favorite tv shows with you.
unfortunately, i usually get home around 9 at night and everyone has already had dinner. or they want me to pick it up on the way home. and then i spend the evening either watching everyone else have fun on their computers or hoping to get my hands on the remote so that i don't have to watch sports all evening. trying to find something to do usually leaves me with something not fun to do, like cleaning or laundry. even the things i thought were fun, like house hunting, are beginning not to be fun because they are stressful. then again, i don't think the brainstorming approach works for this task. us all sitting in our respective corners coming up with ideas and then reconvening at a later date doesn't really work. we never are on the same page and the whole thing usually ends with huey saying "i've got work to do. you figure it out"
in fact, that's how a lot of things end. "i've got work to do, you figure it out" but the point is, i can't really go around figuring things like this out on my own. how can i feel confident in making decisions for two when the other half usually disagrees with the decisions i make? but yet, he's too busy to participate. very stressful. and it really just makes me not care. so then i'm procrastinating. and i hate procrastinating. well, actually i love procrastinating because it lets me do a lot of things i really like. such as watching movies. but then i get nothing important done.
but i have had some good movie watching lately. we have a movie trading company in our area and i think that place is pretty great. if i can walk out of there with 6 movies for $40, i'm a pretty happy camper. and if one of those is the animated classic the last unicorn, well, then i have no room for complaint. walking into this place gets me thinking, "if i could just win the lottery." but not a whole lot... just a coupla hundred. so i could spend it on movies. actually, the more i think about it the lamer i'm sounding. a movie geek... great. and not even good movies... just all movies.
i got a raise at work. 4 percent. not good. not bad. it just is what it is. more money. i'm wondering what yearly inflation is. i don't think that even covers it. plus my personal inflation is about to go up. i guess i couldn't hope to only be paying $250 in rent a month for forever. especially since i didn't expect to be living with four other roommates for forever. its funny how all these little changes seem to go hand in hand. why does change have to happen all at once? butterflies have the right idea... they take their time in their little cocoon. but then again, i guess i am cocooned here. and change isn't going to happen all at once... it's just going to be a lot more apparent when i bust outta here. random metaphors.... hmmmm...
have i ever mentioned before that i own a three bedroom tent? you can stand up in it. that is listed as one of the features. that you can stand up. fascinating stuff. the problem with this tent is that i've never had anywhere big enough to set it up, so it has never been used. and i've had it for about 4 years now. but we are making plans to use it this year. i guess making plans is the first step to actually doing things (or perhaps the first step away from it for me) but we'll see.
oh, and i got a call from katie and charlie wall-tilt. they are in rome. my jealousy is overshadowed only by my happiness for them. but it was really sweet... katie called because they had climbed up to the top of st. peters basilica in rome... and we'd done that back when we were on our trip many, many years ago. so she just called to say hi and see how we were doing. unfortunately i was at work at the time and didn't get to answer (crappy work) but the message was still nice all the same. it's so good hearing from old friends from time to time.... i just wish it happened more often. i miss old friends...
