there is something wrong with my head! ever since i woke up yesterday my head has been very sensitive to movement and there is a weird dull pain behind my eyes. in fact, every time i look up, down or sideways with just my eyes it hurts worse. i felt very feverish yesterday too, but today i just keep getting cold-sweats. and of course our damn thermometer is broken so i don't really know if i do have a fever. i think this is kharmic payback for me laughing at huey and jay's illness earlier this week... my bacterial tonsilitis went away the first time but three weeks later they are both struggling with it. looks like i stepped in it... i'd rather have a sore throat then this feeling that my brain has come loose from my skull and is moving around a second behind the actual turn of my head...
in other news, it's finals time again so this really is the perfect time to feel like this (fuck me). cereal though, i have two finals next wednesday and a 15-20 page marketing plan due monday (don't forget about the geniuses i have in my marketing group to help me out with this). to add to all of this, i have clerks II tickets tonite, baby shower tomorrow, sister's birthday party sunday, and concert tickets monday... talk about not planning well. luckily huey turned in his 3 week notice yesterday at work so we were able to drop his coworkers' housewarming party off our list for the weekend, even though i'm not really sure where we would have fit it in. i'm not actually sure where my grades stand this semester, but i have a good feeling about them. i've tried to focus on individual performance and not stress the whole semester about where i stand overall. my "one day at a time" approach, while not at all novel is definately helping me to keep better organized and focused. we'll know in two weeks how i did... maybe i pulled a back to back 4.0 and will have another letter to put onto my fridge.
so since huey's turned in his notice it's like savannah is a done deal thing now. it sucks... on one hand i wanted him to stay, to keep working his current job, and not shake things up because it was easier and comfortable and i knew that it worked for us. i was just being scared of change though... and selfish. on the other hand i know he has to go because this is what he wants, what he's wanted for a couple of years now, and this is his chance to get it. i guess what i'm worried about long term is, where does it end? he goes to savannah for his career... what happens in a year and half when i finish school? what if i get offered a job in another city? do i move for my career? or follow him to savannah? or try to get him back to atlanta? this issues are so far in the future but i have a feeling they are going to rush up faster than we realize and i won't be prepared to deal with them... either way, i think, big picture, that i can feel selfish and want him to stay because all that shows is that i really care and want him with me... but as long as i deal with that and don't let it get me down, then i'll be fine with the whole thing...
on a less mushy note, i'm a little sick of our chocolate salty walls in the living room (our affectionate name for the green-tinted brown color). i've been thinking lately that it's too dark, a mocha instead of a dark vanilla. besides, we stapled up that vinyl shower curtain for the projector and had a bit of a hard time getting the staples back off the wall and kinda gouged holes in the chocolate salty walls... so it needs to have something done with it anyways. sabrina will be moved in by the end of august so i'll talk to her about it. maybe we can pick a different color and paint. i tried to talk to huey about it but everytime i mention paint he starts muttering something about me being a paint nazi and shuts down... which makes me laugh because i imagine myself standing here yelling "no paint for you!!"
