if you think change is good, come over here for a second...
cuz i want to kick you in the knee...
this week has to be one of the worst weeks i've had since... well, i think since my dad died. and that's been almost 2 years so i've been on kind of a good streak for awhile. i guess the fact that we moved my dad's cremains (yes, that is what they officially call them) to a new military cemetary they are building in canton last thursday and did a whole new burial thing didn't really help matters. it kinda got me started in a funk and then it's just gotten worse...
huey leaves... grandma gets pneumonia... i get behind on school work... i feel like i bombed my first big test... i spend a lot of time at the hospital... i'm stuck sleeping under my mom's roof for the first time in over 6 years... grandma has to go to a nursing home to recover... i have to find a job to work for at least the next month or so until things get settled here... i get hospital germs which make me feel sick... on and on and on it goes.
i want to go back to next wednesday and redo the past week... completely redo it. i know i couldn't knock everything off that list, but i'm sure i could at least cut a few back...
so to raise my spirits i decided to listen to this song when i got home because i seemed to remember it putting the whole idea of change in a good light... change for the better basically... if you haven't heard it, you should...
Change -Tracy Chapman-
If you knew that you would die today, Saw the face of god and love, Would you change? Would you change?
If you knew that love can break your heart When you're down so low you cannot fall Would you change? Would you change?
How bad, how good does it need to get? How many losses? How much regret? What chain reaction would cause an effect? Makes you turn around, Makes you try to explain, Makes you forgive and forget, Makes you change? Makes you change?
If you knew that you would be alone, Knowing right, being wrong, Would you change? Would you change?
If you knew that you would find a truth That brings up pain that can't be soothed Would you change? Would you change?
How bad, how good does it need to get? How many losses? How much regret? What chain reaction would cause an effect? Makes you turn around, Makes you try to explain, Makes you forgive and forget, Makes you change? Makes you change?
Are you so upright you can't be bent? If it comes to blows are you so sure you won't be crawling? If not for the good, why risk falling? Why risk falling?
If everything you think you know, Makes your life unbearable, Would you change? Would you change?
If you'd broken every rule and vow, And hard times come to bring you down, Would you change? Would you change?
If you knew that you would die today, If you saw the face of God and love, Would you change? Would you change? Would you change? Would you change?
If you saw the face of God and love If you saw the face of God and love Would you change? Would you change?
problem is, it didn't make me feel better. it made me feel sad... so after sitting and moping for a bit i started to think about it more and realized that right now i'm just sitting here letting things happen to me and around me instead of taking control (one of my favorite things) and doing what i do best... smiling and moving on.
so i wanted to get that off my chest, and now that i did i feel better. besides, i still have saturday and oktoberfest to look forward to...
