things just keep going wrong and seem to go from bad to worse. i wish life had more poka-yoke's built in. this week sucks! huey's having a hard time in savannah because the dog has ripped out of her crate twice now, dug up the carpet in huey's brand new house, and is still acting like a crack head five days after she got down to savannah. he's stressed about that, getting settled in savannah, and getitng caught up at work. he can't sleep, i can't sleep, we are oversleeping in the morning. he is late for work, i'm missing classes... it's just a mess. i hate to be a pessimist, but all i see are things which can go wrong ahead of me...
i'm thinking of setting a day in my mind and making that the day where things stop being weird, where life goes back to normal and where i become totally adjusted to my new "situation". it's a mind over matter problem i believe, and i hate to think it's only me making everything hard for myself.
on a happier note, i am not flunking out of school even though i am taking six classes. at least not yet... i've gotten the following grades on quizzes/tests so far... 83, 100, 91, 105, 98... not so bad really. i'm actually kind of proud of myself. what is interesting is that we were discussing in my consumer behavior class (which is basically a consumer psychology class) a case study where they took females at a college and split them into two similar groups. one group they showed commercials and images that empowered women while the other group they showed commercials and images that supported the stereotype that women are worse at math and science. after that, they were both given a basic math skills test. the group that had the empowering messages scored 18% better than the group that was mentally beat down before the test...
what does this tell me? that while i do study a pretty decent amount and work hard to learn all the concepts for my classes, that part of my brain that is arrogant enough to go into a test thinking "you'll do well because you always do" is probably helping to boost my grades by a pretty good bit. so i'm going to embrace that, but not in a big-headed, snobbish kind of way... in a "i know i can do this and can be good at it" kind of way. positive thinking, right?
season premier of lost tonite... i'm so excited i could pee my pants... on the other hand, watching gilmore girls week after week (my favorite show) is going to make me a mess... both new episodes have got me crying... damn writers getting me all emotionally invested and shit... they think they are soooo clever.
