so i got to see my little sister walk in her college graduation today. it made me feel really, really good inside... i'm so proud of her, being the first kid in our family to get there. i also wanted to kick her, because she was the first kid in our family to get there... then i realized that i really just wanted to kick myself, for allowing her to be the first kid in our family to get there.
but i am trying to rectify that. i made my wish on my shooting star, and spent my day neurotically checking the grade website every half hour from my phone. i swear, internet on the phone can really be a curse in this kind of situation. slowly during the day, grades popped up. i had my one official A already... two more showed up later... and then another after lunch... and when i checked again at four i was up to five OFFICIAL A's on the website. one of my up-in-the-air classes had finally come through... it was my last final that i took on wednesday. i guess i did well enough. the only one i still didn't know was my first one from monday, which i needed a 79 on to get an A. with cumulative finals, really strange things can happen. when i took acct 1, i got A's on all my tests throughout the semester but got a C on the cumulative final. they can be really tricky sometimes.
so i finally headed home at about 6:00 from my mom's house and decided to check one last time, in case they had put up my last grade right before they headed home or something... scrolling through the page i wasn't really expecting it to be there, so when i saw that final A i actually screamed and then almost drove off the road. then i laughed and bounced around in my seat singing to myself "i'm such a smarty pants... i'm such a smarty pants..." and then i did the strangest thing... i got all teary-eyed. for some reason i was thinking in my head, why couldn't i have done this while my dad was still alive so he could have seen me be the first kid in our family to graduate? what the hell had i been waiting for all this time?
well, woulda coulda shoulda, as my mom always says. there is no point in dwelling in the past. focus on what is ahead... which would be the christmas party tomorrow night. i still haven't done anything for it, but i do have a plan now. my plan is to go to party city right after i finish this and buy a pinata... then i'm going to run around like a crazy woman and somehow magically get everything else done before 5:00 tomorrow so that i have time to come home, relax and make it to the party on time...
