This is not the end. It is not even the beginning of the end. But it is, perhaps, the end of the beginning. -Winston Churchill-
argh....... i had my first final tonite. totally rocked it... i think. but this is huge. i am now 1/5 of the way through with the crap week - i mean finals week - at the end of this semester from hell. i feel so tense right now. like i'm mentally wound up. i'm trying to get studying for my other finals and my brain keeps jumping to other things, mostly other classes. it is just so exciting to almost be done!!!
my biggest concern right now isn't with my grades thus far. it's not even with my final grades. i have gotten A's on every grade i've gotten back so far so i have a pretty healthy buffer for my finals... in one class i calculated that i could get a D on the final and still keep my A in the class. how awesome is that!! i'm not laying off my studying though... have to keep my eye on the prize, right? the only problem i foresee right now is some of my teacher's so called "attendance policies." it isn't like i skip out on class all the time... but i'm in the 3-4 missed class range for some of them. really not too bad over the whole semester, but that could mean a one to two letter grade drop if my teachers feel like it. suxors... we'll see though... it just doesn't seem right to penalize an A student for not wanting to sit through your boring lectures when you suck as a teacher. as a matter of fact, i think that will be my official argument if it comes up. yeah, right...
so the urge overcame me the other day. i was sitting in clas and drifting in and out of the lecture, pretty bored when my hand just flipped to the last page in my notebook and i started making a list. i was eight items in before i realized what i was doing... fruit tray, veggie tray, meat and cheez tray, bean dip, brownies, cookies, roll samiches, snowman cheez ball... shit shit shit. i'm making christmas party lists again. and i was walking through the grocery store and making mental notes of the party trays they sell, how big they are and how much they cost. it's like i can't control my brain!! it does seem silly to wait until next wednesday night to start planning for this all though... that would only give me two days to completely plan for the party then. of course, more has been done with less. and it's not like this is my first time.
it's just like i said before... i want this one to be good. go out with a bang, right? i'm going to stay up til dawn, drink a fair amount, and have the best damn time i can...
